I'm Back

Well who would of thought that I would come back. Not me, but here I am. Life has away of changing doesn't it? since I have written before, I have become a grandma again to a beautiful baby boy(Kayden). He is precious in Gods sight and mine, or I should say ours. (my Family) He was born July 29th and he is just cute as a button.

I would like to discuss another situation that has come up recently.
I had a girlfriend named (well we will call her Cheryl, because that is her name) and we were friends for 34 years. Now let me perfectly honest I love Cheryl not in a gay or lesbian way but as a real true friend. We were like sisters in my mind, and although I did not call her everyday or sometimes for weeks or months or once I think for almost a year we did not speak. We each have are own lives and we live them, but when ever I would here about Cheryl or someone in her family or about her family I would be there for her. Like when her brother died. Or when she got married. (I have Not been to any of her weddings weird! I just thought of that) or when her first husband use to call me because she was depresses and he couldn't get her to talk, I would go over and help and try to comfort her, or just some times show up and talk for hours and hours, or I would call her and we would talk till both my ears hurt.
I have always felt that we were friends, and that I was a friend to her,then one day a couple of weeks ago she writes me this re-email (from one that I sent to her earlier) and said that I wasn't her friend any more and that I never was. She said that I should MOVE ON !! take her out of my Contact list and basically I should never speak to her again. Well obviously I was pretty shocked and hurt. So I went to her house after work to see what was going on and she basically said that she realized that I was never her friend and that she has always initiated anything we do together and that she was fine with us not being friends and WOW!!! She basically ended up saying that she doesn't want to be friends any more because I don't call her and ask her if she wants to go do something together on the weekends or whatever. Because her boyfriend has some body like that. Someone who calls him and ask him what he is doing and does he want to get together and she said I don't , and in all honesty I don't. But neither does she! so I didn't get the problem. we were never friends like that either one of us.
Now I really don't think that makes much sense. And I think that my friend is going through alot, and I didn't realize how much. But I think not being friends at all really was not the answer, and now I feel really hurt and I don't know why but I can't seem to let it go. I told her I would respect her wishes and not talk to her any more because that is what she said, she never wanted to speak to me again! But WOW! it really hurts and I don't think it was necessary. She could have just found someone who liked to do those things (I really don't have the money to shop except for necessities) and we could have remained friends. Am I being weird about this?
I am still going to be her friend but I will still respect her wishes and If she ever wants to talk again we will. But I don't know what is going to happen from here on out....
Ok! I am done with that!! Sorry just hurting here!

Thanks for dealing, Later