I know all of you gals out there know who Oprah Winfrey is and probably all you guys too, but I was reading a book she wrote called "What I know for sure" it is not only informative but educational to all women in my opinion. But my point is she said a quote from the bible "the truth shall set you free" in reference to knowing yourself and visa versa. I have thought about that all night now, and I realized that I don't know myself very well. I have lived my life one day at a time and now time truely is passing me by and I still don't have a clue as to where or what I want. And I also realized that I have spent my life looking for others to define me. I mean who am I if not my sons mother or my mothers daughter, my boyfriends girlfriend. I think now how pathetic am I. So I started to think "OK then who am I, what do I want? My conclusion is I don't KNOW! Still pathetic. So now I am going to try to figure that out, I mean now when I think of it maybe knowing means I will have to start to take responsibility for who I am and what I will become, and what if when I look in that mirror I don't like who I see and if I don't do I have the courage to change. I think I always blame others for me not taking resposibility for my own actions or my own life, always using others as the reason I don't change.(Example: Like my boyfriend won't let me do that or go there so I can't) therefore putting the blame on him instead of myself. Like why not just say I don't want to or say I am too chicken that he will leave me and OH! what will or would I do then. Maybe that is it I am too chicken to get out there and find out what I could be or could do with my life if only I would get my Butt off that couch....
OK enough about that.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Muddly

First Day

Well I have finally did it! I have started a blog and boy are you all going to wish I hadn't LOL.
I really thought it would be harder but it wasn't. So now how to get startd?

I guess I will start by talking about me, yeah! I have one son who I adore, A granddaughter who is 16 months old and the most precious thing on this entire Planet. And YES I know everyone says that about there grandchild but so WHAT! it is true. She is the most precious. And I LOVE HER! I have a man I have been with for 20 yrs and YES that does say 20 years. We have lived together for 8 of those yrs and although it has been rocky we are surviving. I think when two people go through as much as we have in the last 20 yrs together, it hopefully makes us stronger, or tears us apart and right now I don't think we know which one. But for now we are holding on to each other and that is ok, for now.

I have a job and I like it and it likes me. And YES I will talk about my job on this site but only the good things for now. I work with alot of great people here and I know alot of people can't say that but it is a good company. I will however not mention the name of the company for that just would not be cool.(plus I may want to talk about them later,lol)

well enough for now I will post again.